Standing in the Mud

I received a letter from very dear friend this last week. I was excited to hear from her, as it had been a long time. I wasn't prepared for what she had to tell me. I didn't expect her to say that for the last several years her marriage had been horrible, to the point of physical and emotional abuse. I can't imagine living like that. Thankfully, the abuse is over and gone. By God's power alone are they still together and working things out.

A couple weeks ago my pastor's wife asked if/when I was going to become a member of the church. I didn't have an answer for her. I hadn't joined yet because I was in the process of job hunting and wasn't sure if I was even going to stay in the area. Now, I have a job in the area and am out of excuses. I really should join the church, I've been attending there for a year. I think part of the reason I haven't asked to join is just because I tend to procrastinate. I think another reason I haven't joined is because there isn't anything going for people my age. Then again, I'm the only one my age who's not married.

Today I realized (yet again) that my spiritual life is basically at a stand still. I'm not climbing higher and trying to get to know God better. It amazes me sometimes how we can see what He's done and still ignore Him. I know I've done that so many times. A few years ago my dad made that comment that he could see how much I'd grown spiritually, but I still felt like I was at the same place I'd always been. I still feel like I'm at that same place. This seriously needs to change.

If anyone has any good devotional books I could use some ideas.