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Warning: Slightly Twilight related content


I'm not what you would call an 'obsessed' Twilight fan. Yes, I've read teh books more then once, yes, I've seen the movies more then once, and yes I do discus both with other Twilight fans. However I'm not going to go to any midnight movie showings, or buy stuff just because it's from Twilight. Now, having said all that I will admit that I enjoy reading the books and analyzing the movies. Recently I've come to the conclussion that I'm "Team Jacob'. I know, I know, that sounds like I'm one of those 'obsessed' fans I've claimed not to be, but let me explain.

After watching New Moon again, I realized that I'm a bit of a Jacob fan. Let me clarify right now that being a Jacob fan as absolutely NOTHING to do with the actor who portrays Jacob. I think in some ways having watched the movie again, it helped me to really picture Jacob's actions, instead of just having to imagine what he might do. Once I reread the books again, I was even more of a Jacob fan, and I finally figured out why.
I relate to Jacob more then any other character in the series. I find myself in his shoes more often in life, aside from the whole freaky wolf thing :p I always find myself as just the friend and never 'the' girl. Now I know that's not necessarily a bad thing, however it never fails that the guys I like end up married, or with someone other then me. Now I'm not saying I wished I'd married them, just that there's always a tad bit of bitter-sweetness to it. I'm genuienly happy for them when they find that 'special someone', but every time that happens I can't help but feel 'there's another good guy taken'.

I know God has a plan for all of us, and everything happens in His time, but sometimes it's hard to be patient. I can't tell you how many people have said that it will happen when you're not looking, or when you least expect it, I've also had people tell me that I'll find that guy when I've finally reached a point where I'm happy being single. I'm not going to argue with them, I've seen it happen to too many people. But sometimes it gets old. I've had many times where I thought I was happy being single, and I haven't been looking for anyone. So again, we're back to God's timing. My brother once told me that he wouldn't be surprised if I never marry and at the time I agreed with him, but at the same time I'm not sure I want to be single forever. I guess I just have to be patient and wait on God for an answer of some kind.


On a side note since I did mention marriage in there; my sister's getting married!!! I'm excited for her, she and Josh are great for each other!